But here is my dilemma, my current medication isn't working so next stop is either tacrolimus (a transplant patient drug) or TPN. Total parenteral nutrition would mean no eating for an indefinite period of time. Rough. Crazy. Hard. Impossible? Would this be impossible, to knowingly deprive myself of the enjoyment of eating and instead receive all my nutrition via my PICC line? Well nothing is impossible, but if you were going to pick something that was as close to impossible as you can get, not eating would be it.
The reason I would do TPN is because I know it would help. With the TPN I would have more energy and not feel nearly as Ill, I may even be able to things I enjoy and have a social life. So is not eating worth the benefits it would provide? I don't know, but if that is what we decide to try next for my Crohns, I am going to conquer the impossible and forgo food. As awful as this sounds, I may find that it makes my life a million times better and better is something I would like right now in my not so normal life.