I had planned to spend today cuddled in my dorm room studying for my astronomy test that is tomorrow. But instead I got to spend today fully sedated for a surprise endoscopy. How many college students get to plan colonoscopies into their week? This girl does and I do it with finesse! I found out around 2:30 yesterday that I would be having a scope done this morning, so I quickly packed my overnight bag, mentally calculated what solid food I had eaten that day and thanked God for a boyfriend who does so much for me.
So I'm not gonna lie I kind if like the feeling of being sedated. I always try to stay awake as long as possible as the room starts to spin and voices become muffled. But then waking up is just terrible because you have to WAKEUP from a nice drug induced sleep. So I typically try to hold onto my sleep for as long as possible, but today I woke up sooner then normal because I was nervous about the results.The nurse walked in and handed me the report before we had talked to the doctor, so I got to process the news before having to face my Doctor. Basically, the news could hve been better, and could have been worse. Things aren't terrible in my intestines but they are bad enough that I am going to be stopping my current medicine, Tysabri. The problem is that I've gone through all the typical crohns therapies so we are on to trying things like transplant patient drugs... Or TPN... Or something else like a drug trial. I knew that results of the scope weren't going to be good, but I'm still digesting the information and options we learned today. I just don't understand how nothing seems to be enough to heal my body and how things can keep getting Worse. I really just don't understand what's happening right now in my not so normal life.l