So today I start the journey of not eating, on the path of hunger to try to help my Crohns. I will start by doing ensure and supplemental shakes for breakfast lunch and dinner, until my predigested enzymes arrive. Then I will do absorb plus until we can get enteral nutrition or TPN set up. Bottom line is, Today I say goodbye to food for an indefinite period of time.
This is hard farwell, because I kind of like food, a lot. I eat when I'm stressed, I eat when I'm happy and I eat when I'm with friends, but now I can't eat, so what am I going to do with myself? I have no idea. I can't exactly keep busy because I have no energy and I can't sleep the day away because I can't sleep, so I am going to have to figure out how to pass the time without food. Ever tried not eating? It sucks. It's basically taking a huge part of your life and removing it. Actually I'd compare it to a very painful break-up. You used to spend a lot of time with this person/food and now you are going to have no contact with them at all. The fact that I just compared food to a person should tell you how I really feel about it.
In the next few weeks if I look longly at your food, don't hold it against me, because this is extremely difficult to cope with and I'll need lots of support. Just like I would need support after a break-up (I'm comparing food to a boyfriend). So today and in the coming days, I need your support, as I say goodbye to food in my not so normal life.